| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so frustrated.....and then frustrated about being frustrated and that fustrates me even MORE soooo basically i have this huge urge to just get up and start screaming and running in circles...maybe i should go to bed...yeah ill just go to bed |
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i write things abstractly to try and hide from myself and everyone else my true feelings.
fear of rejection holds me back from being honest
i cant stand the thought of being alone
i dont understand but im afraid to ask
everytime i think i have it figured out...something makes me realize im wrong
what am i doing wrong?
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regret is something we all have to deal with
it sucks but its always going to be there...like it or not
i try my best to live my life without it but sometimes its hard to avoid
im starting to figure myself out and the situations i get myself in and why i let myself get there and it all stems back to teh whole regret issue...its like i always say i want this so ill act on it cause ill regret it if i just sit back and do nothing...but with that whole mentality of "no day but today" can potentially result in a lot of hurt...at the same time it can also result in a lot of happiness so i guess you just have to weigh your options and pick one...sometimes getting hurt makes you stronger in a weird way and i know that sounds sooo cliche like o you just build character but when you really look at it in perspective its pretty true cause hurt forces you to think and sometimes we all need to do a little more of that soooo...
take chances
get hurt
grow stronger
youll be supprised what you can find out about yourself when youre not happy and smiling all the time
im pretty sure this or something similar to this is from some song...i dont really remember which one but yeah
live as though youve never known what its like to hurt
and that is my little insight on life at 1 45 when the rest of the world is dreaminggggggg |
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| i guess i wasnt as strong today |
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| i almost did something really stupid today
im glad i didnt cause it wouldnt have solved anything
the truth is i cant really think of a time when ive ever felt this way before...and it scares me...a lot
i cant help feeling youre the only one that understands but the sad part is the truth... you have no clue
well im sure noones reading this cause i never write in this thing anymore but its weird how much better i feel now |
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